Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Imperfection...

What happens to a dream deferred?
Where do u draw the line between dreams and reality?
What becomes of an unspoken wish?
Is there truly anything as destiny?
How do you explain what you can't understand?

We seek answers without asking questions...
We search for love with caged hearts...
We believe in hope but fail to dream...
We dream but yet we refuse to believe...
We speak but our own words mean nothing to us...

Everyday, the battle rages inside of me...
A battle between control and surrender...
Between dreams and reality...
Perfectly masked by an ever present outward image of calmness...
A nonchalance borne out of resignation to fate...

I have done things that I am not proud of...
Spoken words that I am ashamed to repeat...
Backed down when I should have been aggressive...
Shouted when I should have kept quiet...
Simply put, I am a picture of imperfection...

My reflection stares back at me...
I am surprised by my own image...
I close my eyes and the picture is different...
Different personalities locked in one body...
A human rainbow caught in grey clouds...

2011..."To be continued"

Friday, December 17, 2010

Seasons Greetings

The year is winding down, gradually stuttering to an end. Itz been a beautiful and wonderful year for me, and eventful too! I am sitting in my office, almost everyone has gone home, listening to Coldplay & The Fray and reminiscing on the past months. How time flies...Started on a rough note but things kinda smoothened out as time went by, then there were a few bumps along the way, new additions to my life and I finally found what I had been searching for. Ah, 2010 will definitely leave alot of memories...

The things i'd always remember this yr:
1. Inception: definitely my movie of the year and my reawakening
2. cK One: Chaos
3. Camry: Tension.
4. Armani Code & Restroom Chronicles: Anticipation.
5. Victoria Secret: Discovery and the exhilaration.
6. La Fruta Prohibida: Penance and Letting Go.
7. Kyla: My Achilles heel.
8. Ottawa: Victory and Rebirth.
9. A'lima: Balance.
10. Music & Blues: Love & Surrender.

I am grateful to God for the gift of life, for my family, my wonderful friends and the numerous blessings!

Special shout out to followers of the blog, y'all rock! Seasons Greetings...

I may have one last entry before the year draws to an end...

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Music & Blues

Hello everyone! I have been very happy lately despite my crazy work schedule. The source of my happiness? I'll let you in on the secret someday...It isnt simply because I am going on vacation soon, but that has to count as well... Itz been ages since I saw my family and friends, even though i call them every week, it cannot mask the fact that I miss my family dearly...the regular phone calls are the only reason why I am still sane (lol)...

Was watching VH1 soul last nite (had to take a break from my ESPN and Fox Soccer Sports routine...lol) and I rediscovered music! And last nite, I stumbled on exactly how I was going to propose! Eureka! It was so simple and breathtaking at the same time...It was a'kin to a feeling of "presque-vu"...Ah, such bliss...I even had a slight flash of my wedding website in my dreams! I know u are probably wondering why I am sounding like a bedazzled love-struck teenager (lol)...I am human!

Anyway, marriage is still 'ages' away, but trust me, i'll be prepared! I am a hopeless romantic (hush hush, men are not supposed to say such things) and also a reluctant perfectionist, so i guess i'll just keep dreaming and planning till the pieces fall in to place...

Alright, enuff of the blues...back to the abstract personality...

"The chords of the song trickled down to his ears like dewdrops on a damp spring morning..."